I used to know who I was
I was independent
Strong and loud,
And always happy.
Happier than happy
I grew older
And people left
Just like they always seem to do.
I fell one too many times and now I’m here,
Where you never were
Where you never will be
I miss you
But I don’t know you
I don’t even know me.
I can’t keep begging all of the people
around me to understand my voice
especially when I can’t comprehend
the meaning behind the sounds.
At this age, I never thought I’d still be searching
for what I swore I had long ago.
Reinventing myself was never easy
not until I knew I had no other option.
I’m stuck in a world
where I have never felt
like I knew who I was.
But when you look me
right in the eye
and tell me you love me,
that’s when I feel I belong.
If no where else,
at least here, I know me.
Orcas frequently beach themselves and lay there in a comatose-like state for extended amounts of time in captivity. This is a stereotypic behavior, meaning it has not goal or function, and stereotypic behaviors occur because of boredom or anxiety. Confinement drives these animals to do things that are unnatural and even painful, as laying out of water puts immense pressure on these animals’ internal Organs. Do not support cetacean captivity, Don’t buy a ticket.
I did the sketch for this a few days ago and was going to make a more finished version for today, but my week was a little interesting.
So have the quick-colored and cleaned-up sketch.
Happy 50th Sea World. I’m bringing out the reality of that celebration. 50 years of piling up dead Shamus for human amusement.
Such an occasion, right?
When you are happy
And I mean really goddamn happy
Like the moon and the sun are finely
Both on your side
That’s when you remember how broken
You really were.
Does it make it better to look back?
Or does it just take you back in?
And keep in mind, while she was around for Kalina’s death, Taku and Katerina both died in San Antonio. ‘Dead’ and ‘gone’ are the same state to a creature who hasn’t any idea or concept why or where their offspring were taken.
Food for thought.
It’s funny that SeaWorld always seems to tell the truth but almost never the whole truth. When people say to me that Blackfish is propaganda and made by extreme activist that are trying to manipulate me, I tell them to do their research, because I have done mine. I only deal in whole truths. Not partial truths that hide lies.